Internal Conversations

"We're the only ones who hear our internal conversations,

who know when we withdraw or feel inspired."

Pema Chodron

We can come up with endless excuses as to why we are not writing.  Excuses can be very real, sincere responsibilities, promised commitments, or necessities of life.  We may believe it is a part of our nature to care take everyone under the sun, using the remaining energy for ourselves ... to climb into bed.  Our character is dependent upon doing for others and we strive to be dependable.  The problem is we could do so much better for others if we nurtured ourselves half as much as we nurtured others.

The key question is "What do I need?"  There is nothing selfish about reserving a small portion or a large section of time, actually written on our calendar, just for our lovely selves.  When we check in with our heart, do we feel the need to withdraw from the maddening crowd or do we want to create with our inspired thoughts?  The final decision is made in our minds with our own thought processes.  We are the ones who get in our own way.  Something, perhaps ego or guilt, convinces us we are unworthy or undeserving to stake a claim for what we need.  We may feel as though we don't deserve the private time.  Maybe we are embarrassed to tell others we just want to write.

In reality, we are not required to tell anyone about our writing if we feel challenged by doing so.  If we are obligated to offer an excuse for our absence or private time, just simply report there is business to be tended to or a meeting.  This is not lying, as our writing is our business and we are meeting with our minds, hearts and souls.

The decision to write is created in our own minds.  Distractions are allowed by our selves.  When we take our writing seriously, treat it with respect and honor our authentic thoughts, our words will flow.