Thursday, September 20, 2018

Web of Fear





"Clearly, all fear has an element of resistance and a leaning away
from the moment. Its dynamic is not unlike that of a strong desire
except that fear leans backward into the last safe moment while 
desire leans forward toward the next possibility of satisfaction."
Stephen Levine

There is a stumbling block on every journey.  On some paths it can be seen from miles out or  disguised until we trip over it.  It can be a person, place or thing.  It can be an emotion, a memory, or a slippery slope spiraling us back into sad places where we have already been.

Fear has been a long time obstacle for me.  This realization did not occur to me until my later years.  And even then time passed before I could learn to adapt to this boulder on my path.  Happily, I increased my ability to recognize and adjust my standing as fear came barreling towards me.

As lessons continue to recur throughout our lives, fear still is no stranger.  It is reduced to only one aspect of my life, but even then I can unexpectedly fall back into dark times.  Stunned, I hide until I can gather strength and reframe what I have experienced.  Once I apply the wisdom to untangle the web of fear, I gather my strength to crawl back into the light.

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