Falls and Trips

"Most important thing in life

is learning how to fall."

Jeannette Walls, Half Broke Horses

Not long ago, my foot dropped into a hole in the asphalt in the parking lot of  a strip mall.  Hands filled with packages, I was not able to brace myself, resulting in the wind being knocked out of me.  When I was finally able to roll onto my back, there were two nurses with me and a paramedic.  My glasses were broken, but no bones.  After this event, I knew the waking dream was showing me in life we fall, but there are kind people to surround us.

A short time later, while walking Bella, I stepped on a 'gum ball' from the street lining tree.  This too rattled my bones, but carefully placed ice packs seemed to work just fine.  This waking dream was reminding me that I will fall when alone, but that I can get up and take care of my lovely self.

Life continues to move forward, and once again I have fallen bringing blood to my elbows, knees, and hands.  I sit quietly trying to imagine why this has happened while tripping through the fallen leaves.   The message finally dawns on me.  The last thing I remember is looking over my shoulder while moving forward.  For me, looking backwards is a deadly trap.  It overwhelms me and binds me in depression.  Maybe when winter arrives, I'll learn a new way to learn my lessons...like making angels in the snow!