Holding Light

 

 

 

  

"There is a light that shines beyond all things on earth,

beyond the highest, the very highest heavens.

This is the light that shines in your heart."

 

Upanishads

 

 

 

Holding light is a necessity for me in order to stay grounded and mindful.  I stand on my two feet, feeling roots grow down into the crystal core of the earth.  Then I pull the light from the crystals up through my legs and ignite the kundalini energy at the base of my spine.  As energy flows upwards through my chakras, I am mentally reaching up into the Divine Light of all there is.  In attempt to integrate the Divine Light with the light from the core of Mother Earth, I pull the light existing above, down through my body.

 

The two sources of light intersect and twine together within my body.  My heart fills with radiance and this blended light is experienced in both my physical and spiritual self.  Being connected above and below, I feel the pulse of two worlds.  I am tethered and yet suspended.

Throughout my day, I repeat this practice taking as long as it takes to feel as though I am holding this light.  It calms me, secures me, and unleashes my creative desires.  I am kept mindful to walk tenderly upon the earth while at the same time, holding a light for others.  

 

 



Courage, Compassion, and Integrity

 "Keep a vigil.

Stay awake in the garden.

Hold to the light.

Revere goodness and integrity and truth."

A WOMAN'S WORTH

Marianne Williamson

Inside my office, I placed three small hearts above the door.  The first was for courage, the second was for compassion, and the third was for integrity.  When a  client sat in my office, they were facing me with their backs to the door.  I was facing them giving me total vision of three inspiring  hearts.  I would frequently encourage individuals to maintain their courage, compassion and integrity.  As I was doing this, I sometimes would ask myself, "Are you listening to what you are saying?  Do you practice what you preach?"

Courage has been steadfast in my life, although there has been times when I have been too weak to use it.  Frequently I acquiesced to the demands of others.  Courage at times was an unmovable boulder, too heavy to carry and too large to walk around.  With insight and healing, I learned to carry a small stone in my pocket as a reminder of my courage being so strong, any barrier would appear to certainly be a small rock.

It has always been easy for me to have compassion and it seems to be extended to all things.  Once several years ago, I came out of my down town office to find all the the lovely trees in the courtyard had been sawed off at the base and removed to allow workers to replace sidewalks.  I was overcome with grief and sorrow for the beautiful trees that had been seemingly slaughtered.  I felt as though I were looking at a battlefield. I hold the image still.

My definition of integrity is who you are when no one is watching. Although I did not have this definition as a child, I held the sense of the word within me, helping me to get through challenging times.  When I was falsely accused or it was assumed I had committed some dastardly childish act, I would quietly hold on to the emotions inside, reminding me I was good and God knew the truth. 

So I have learned to stay awake in the garden, nodding off just here and there, but I hold on to my light, to keep it shinning brightly both for myself and for others.  I cherish goodness and honesty in the hearts of others as I carry compassion and courage with a willingness to share.  It is integrity, however,  guiding my internal spirit in all things seen and unseen.