Enemy on the Road

"The deeper I go into myself the more I realize

that I am my own enemy."

Floriano Martins

It was a dark stretch in the road and I felt like enemies were lined up on either side, so I veered down a side path.  It was still dark, but I felt as though I could finally peel some of my heavy armor off. Odd to realize, however, the enemies were critiquing from inside my head.

To recognize the enemies voices as my own, duplicating nay sayers from the past, can be discouraging.  It feels so counter productive to sabotage my own yearnings and to watch my own self-esteem spiral to depletion. Holding myself accountable for my own wrong doings, I wonder how to proceed.

Once I realize that being "God's perfect children" meant we were loved by Divine, flaws and all, I began to find my way.  Greener pastures introduced me not only to beautiful wild flowers, but to the diligence of life giving weeds as well.  Space was cleared from around me allowing room for trial and error followed by forgiveness and compassion.  Bathed in the sun, and cleansed by the rain, I no longer am concerned by armor or enemies.  I even go naked in the spring.