"One of the worst griefs people feel is the longing for elders in their lives. How
many times do we find ourselves in conflict, fear or despair and wish we could
receive guidance from someone who knows better? There is no shortage of older
people in our communities, but what differentiates and elder from and older ...?
Toko-pa Turner
Today is another birthday for me ... I am 'aging' ... not getting older. I have acquired an enormous amount of knowledge over the years, but I am not certain it has translated into wisdom. I never had older relatives in my life, never an elder to listen to my concerns. This is probably why astrologically I am a Moon Child. The Moon has been the ancient presence to witness my grief, concern, and fear.
It is difficult to identify with community as I have always been marching to that other tune. It has led my gypsy soul from sand and ocean waves to soft clouds in the mountain air; from isolation in an earth based cave to a walk over a bed of fire. Sisters of my heart have faithfully come forth in my times of need and I thank the stars for the expression of poets, writers, musicians, and artists. I praise the creative spirit in each soul.
As I breathe air today, it is challenging to find an elder who understands my spiritual perspectives. My thoughts, words and deeds are a bit too creative for anyone who has stopped the search for self. I know who I have been, both dark and light sides, but it is unclear to me who I shall become during the lagging days ahead. I shall continue to follow the light until it is dark no more.
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