If we don't change, we don't grow.
If we don't grow, we are not really living.
Growth demands a temporary surrender of security.
Gail Sheehy
Gazing back across the years, it seems as though I have led many lives within just one. My life like a book has many chapters building upon the person I once was and who I seem to be today. I would not choose to leave a bookmark in any special place, but rather move it along as the final chapters near.
It is no surprise to me, who I am today for I am very much the person I once set out to be. I feel as though all of my masks have fallen away leaving me light enough to continue on my way.
Defining my self as a seeker, I have gathered knowledge primarily from books and mentors or teachers I acquired along the way. There comes a time, however, when one must stop seeking and simply apply the wisdom at hand. I no longer remember who said what or where or when, as all inspiration has melted into one.
"And at what cost did this destiny come?" I ask of my self. Ah, the price ... what did I pay? "I paid dearly," the truth be told. With every stage of personal and spiritual growth, as enhanced as I could be, I lost people, places, and things. It puzzled me that others rarely could celebrate the existence of the awakened mind, but rather felt a need to turn away and leave me behind.
By surrendering external things, I gained a deeper meaning of 'me'. I found not only my spiritual self, but became one with all that is. Divine Spirit is in all things surrounding me and the world is mine to behold.
