Another Year Passing Me By ...

 

Your pain is the breaking of the shell

that encloses your understanding.

Kahlil Gibran

There have been some of those who I have met along the way, that have already stepped off their path either to rest or journey no farther.  My journey continues.

Another year is passing me by, and it has been a period for 'breaking my shell'... transformation, forgiveness and reunification.  A time for letting go and moving forward to harmonize opposites.

There is limitation in totally removing oneself from the physical world through meditation, contemplation and withdrawal.  There are restrictions when living totally in the physical world void of the mysteries of life and personal evolving.  So we must take the best of both worlds, being spiritually connected while engaging with the human population.

My years of seeking or searching seem to have ended.  Now I sit heavily with all that I have gathered and anticipate how to give back meeting life's purpose.  I am excited with the prospects that are now waiting before me, and I find myself more than eager to walk further down my creative road.

My shell continues to crack and the pain reminds me of the hidden, needing to be unveiled once and for all.  Even though in doing so, the risk becomes I may not be who I think I am at all.  So many layers stripped away, and yet one never seems to be done.  My choice I suppose, but I long for the unfolding of what is yet to come.

 

 

Cultivate a Sense of Worthiness

The appearance of things change according to the emotions,

and thus we see magic and beauty in them,

while the magic and beauty are really in ourselves.

Kahlil Gibran

Lebanese Poet and Philosopher

We are all resilient creatures entitled to a life of abundance, creative expression, and good health.  Born into this physical world, we bring unique gifts and talents to be used in carving our imprint upon our own life and the lives of others. 

We are not meant to be the same nor are we meant to be ruthlessly competitive.  In the truest sense of living, we are meant to compliment, encourage and inspire each other.  At times, we are also called to challenge, but never conquer.  Sometimes we are the teacher and often times, the teacher becomes the student.

If the only person we can truly change is our self, we must continue to go within, discovering our connection with Divine Spirit.  Through prayer, meditation or contemplation, we tap into wisdom, insight, and inspiration which encourages personal empowerment ... not a physical power over others, but the essence and the importance of the spiritual abilities we each possess. 

If we do not cultivate a sense of worthiness, we will never be able to make the change we most want to see.  We will continue to have a yearning and a sense of unfulfillment no matter what material accomplishments we achieve. 

By achieving the sense of self-worth, we can slow down and become aware of the beauty we each behold.  Instead of being threatened, we can celebrate the differences between us.  If we open our hearts with compassion, attempt to understand differences between us, and join our efforts towards common goals, our world will be a source of comfort.  Love becomes the bond holding us together.

Celebrating a Life

Son, you outgrew my lap,

but never my heart.

Unknown

When we have more than one child, we wonder how we will ever have enough love for each one.  Somehow, love just appears.  We may love each child differently, but amazingly love abounds.

Today, May 10th is the birthday of my second son.  He was the most difficult child to raise out of four.  Outside of our family, adults viewed him as quiet and shy without ever smiling.  Inside our home, the child bounced off the walls tormenting all of us. Once he learned to channel his high level of energy, he began to accomplish wonderful things.  

My love for Ryan was different in that it required more patience and understanding.  His off the wall unexpected insights always caught me by surprise.  His observations and assessments were always perceptive.

Unlike his older brother who knew everyone under the sun, Ryan held few people close.  Once you were his friend, however, his loyalty and trust were admirable.  I loved this child from some deep source in my soul.

As a baby and toddler, people would say things like, "I bet he hears everything with those big ears," or "I bet he doesn't miss anything with those huge eyes!"  In time, Ryan grew into his features and became a very nice looking man.

By college, he left athletics behind him and became determined to graduate even though he had to work full time.  He would some how manage to slip home to rekindle his unspoken love for his younger brother and sister.  He made the house come alive with his sarcastic humor and trickery.

He reflected a strong ego, but it was obvious that he used it as a defense mechanism.  I knew he had fallen in love when he came home one Christmas and told me, "I have met a girl who is smarter than me."  He is married to a beautiful and industrious woman and together they have two wonderful children.

Ryan has been exceptionally successful in his work and has been very generous with family, friends, and employees.  I am proud of him and admire him.  No matter how much time passes between visits, we immediately connect wherever we had left off.  My bond with him has been strangely secured in other life times and I know our energies will stretch beyond human boundaries and star studded skies.

Thank you, Ryan.  Thank you for being such a wonderful son and for loving me through thick and thin.