Falling Down and Getting Back Up

"Falling down is part of life,  getting back up is living." Jose N. Harris  Once upon a time, I was gifted with a pair of boots and told to 'walk my talk'. I'd like to believe that I have followed this directive by taking strides away from drama and following leads to in depth experiences. I paid attention to who treated me right and entered scenarios stimulating insight, depth and laughter.  It feels uncomfortable to shed old skin and find the self naked in new situations. A motion of descent then encompasses me while I adjust to loss and sorrow. On the way back up, I discover an array of new interests. Exploring this unknown, I find magic hovering in the shadows illuminating my lingering desires. These boots of mine were made for walking and gratefully, I have come a long way. Whether wading through water or shuffling through snow, they have supported me. At times I felt like a soldier going into war, but the boots wrapped my feet in confidence. New boot heals have been applied and shoelaces replaced, while my feet remain comfortably snug inside.

 

Neutralized Towards All Things

"Waiting hurts.  Forgetting hurts.  But not knowing

which decision to take can sometimes be the most painful."

Jose N. Harris

When a person is depressed, it doesn't take much to find them frozen in place.  There is no flexibility left in the body, the mind, nor the spirit.  In a sense the depressed person has become neutralized towards all things except the churning within the mind.

When a person is depressed, it takes great effort to put on an acceptable persona when a friend approaches.  They remain somewhat withdrawn and interact as though they were playing an expected role.  When asked, those covered in emotion will simply pass their lack of involvement on being tired. The visitor too easily agrees and leaves.

Unfortunately, pain is a part of life and to the degree we suffer depends upon our response.  We always have choice and granted it might not be a great choice; but nevertheless, it is an action that can initiate our way back to living. Even if the action does not direct us to where we most want to be, at least it is a beginning.  A new movement out of depression towards living life.

Imperative to Let Go

"Waiting hurts.  Forgetting hurts.  But 

not knowing which decision to take

can sometimes be the most painful."

Jose N. Harris

Waiting for results or answers can be a very painful period of time.  It can last a few minutes or a life time.  If we can wait no longer, we decide to push the memory or incident away,  This totally  drains our energy as we repress our unaddressed emotions.  

When we grow weary of this waiting, we may decide to make a decision.  Perhaps it is too early or  maybe even too late, but we can no longer tolerate being suspended in not knowing.  To make a decision not based upon all facts, can be harmful to all involved.

If we feel the need to move forward, it is beneficial to create some form of ending.   Whether we seek advice from a mentor; express in deep private writing; or silently in meditation, to have some sense of resolution will help create an ending.   If we are forcing the issue out of revenge or suffering there will be even more pressure and discord.  As it takes toll on body, mind, and spirit, it  becomes imperative to let go.