Striving For Love

"The whole point of life is to learn love.  Life is the school,

love is the lesson, and we are all here to teach each other."

Kate McGhan

When I graduated from college with a double major in psychology/sociology, my goal was still that of being a loving mother.  I gave birth to four children, loving each one for his or her essence, and trying to foster strengths and diminish shortcomings.  I realize, with age, these beloved individuals were teachers to me as well.  Given my habit of 'seeing within' rather than stark reality, my love choices have been damaging.  I focus upon giving love as I would want to be loved.  Foolishly, I spotted deceptions blatantly before me, but this little soldier continued to fight the war for love.  My lessons have guided me to a spiritual concept of Oneness.  I view all of us as having worth and it is not found in dollar signs.  I broaden my love for humans without judgment, and embracing diversity, blessing me with an endless sense of love.  I thrive in spite of my lovely self.

Hallucination

 

"Fumbling in the dark and watching now

For new light to help me find my way."

Kate McGahan

A few days prior to Christmas I promised myself to maintain focus of the light until the New Year appeared on calendars.  I was sincere and determined, but found my lovely self faltering as early as Christmas morn.  

To ensure success, I had an outline to spread across my day, eliminating pockets of potential darkness.  Resources were waiting and I was confident in creating an uplifting Christmas Day to begin substitution for traditional family ways.

Christmas Day began with squeals from the kiddo's response to Santa's visit.  A delicious breakfast was prepared and I even had time to send off some quick messages to the sister's of my heart and a few immediate family conversations, but not all.  Then communication of all kind went dead. Darkness came without notice forcing us into an even deeper adjustment to our 2020 holiday.  Baffled, I experienced both thankfulness for curtailed bombing impact and grateful to be with my loving family; however,  it definitely knocked me out of my hallucination of mastering the light!