Second Guessing Truth

"Most of us will do anything 

to avoid facing ourselves."

Lolly Daskal

Thoughts Spoken From The Heart

Unpacking an old box, I discovered a random journal.  I noticed the yellowing of the pages, and the sprawling of my younger penmanship.   Curious, I read deeply into the reflections of my life from twenty-five years ago.

I recognized a pattern in my behavior.  I would state an accurate assessment of a situation, but not apply my insight.  As much as six months later, I would come across the exact same assessment that I had made much earlier.  If I had not avoided my original wisdom, the lesson would have been far less complicated.

The words of trusted friends are easily savored and the knowledge of certain authors becomes gospel truth.  Yet, the quiet whispers of my own soul are required to be harshly repeated before I take heed. It is disappointing to see so clearly written on my page the habit of second guessing my own truths, values, and worthiness.   Precious time is wasted deceiving myself and by avoidance.  To embrace what I know at initial turning points, my journey would be less confusing and more articulate.