Tightness of Rigidity

"Just because I liked something at one point in time doesn't mean I'll always like it, or that I have to go on liking it at all points in time as an unthinking act of loyalty to who I am as a person, based solely on who I was as a person.  To be loyal to myself is to allow myself to grow and change, and challenge who I am and what I think.  The only thing I am sure is unsure, and this means I'm growing and not stagnant or shrinking."  Jarod Kintz

Change can be very subtle and we may not recognize it until it has long been in place.  We find ourselves on automatic pilot saying how much we love to do something (an activity we have long forgotten as it no longer holds our interest) or claim to be an avid reader (not being able to recall a single book from the passing year) or state a core belief ( knowing it no longer is creditable in our power of reasoning). 

Exposure to diverse interests helps us to decipher the built in releases during our transitions.  We have room for only so much and why invest energy into something no longer keeping our spirit alive?  When we prime our pump of imagination, we are led to unexpected delights.  To step across a previous barrier, we can better learn the illusion of fear.  When our hearts have been repeatedly wounded, they remain cracked open waiting to heal with change.  

I dislike change and much prefer routine, until I feel the tightness of rigidity or the pressure of shrinking enclosing the spirit within.  My yearnings, I hope, will keep pulling me forward while my character is deeply carved within.  The only thing for certain is I am no longer who I was and will not forever stay who I am.