Feeling Worthy

 

"Now, I have no choice but to see with your eyes,

So I am not alone, so you are not alone."

 

Yannis Ritsos

 

 

Bella is blending into my routine and my heart is filled with joy.  It is the same fullness I feel when all of the kids are at home.  It is the happiness I share when my daughter is simply present.  I have someone to take with me wherever I go and who will listen to my rambling thoughts. 

 

My life is definitely more active and  I watch out for what might harm Bella or what might cause her to go loping away.  Paying attention to her brings me outside of myself.  She keeps my view finder equipped with a wider lens than the norm. I find myself to be more grounded and aware. 

 

The process of feeling worthy has been lengthy, but determining my needs, pursuing and acting, and then patiently achieving results has been worth the emotional roller coaster ride.  I am sleeping more soundly and happier throughout my day.  I so hope Bella feels exactly the same way!