Let Go Of Leaves

A wind has blown the rain away

and blown the sky away

and all of the leaves away,

and the trees stand.

I think, I too, have known

the autumn too long.

e. e. cummings

Fall is my most favorite time of the year for a variety of reasons.  I love apples, pumpkins, cooler weather and all of the beautiful leaves.  I feel most at home in the fall and more alive.  There is a vitality and joy that seems to keep my fears at bay.  My energy seems to be able to stay in the flow where I feel calm and safe.

There are times, however, where the wind is so strong, it takes away some leaves that I am not yet ready to release.  The gust rattles my branches and shakes some of the still attached leaves free.  At this time, I do not yet feel prepared to stand leaf-less or naked in the dull gloom of the forthcoming winter hues. 

It is impossible to maintain a constant presence in the flow of nature or spirituality.  We, as human beings, seem unable to consistently remain in clarity.  One minute we have an experience in lofty space and time, but then we find ourselves disconnected again.  There are lapses in our enlightenment, but determination moves us back through the holy stream with curiosity, love and desire.

As I watch the leaves gracefully fall to the ground, I wonder about the long cold winter of hibernation.  Hopefully my stored thoughts will keep me pondering until the arrival of spring.  I will be anxious to see my new sprouts and what life will once again bring.